Oh My Mother: retfa eht llac… 

… Emma… Mama’s gone… 

Eight hours earlier… 

I’d just returned back from work cos though it was a Saturday, my boss called for me to come help out with some office work (think the call made me change my mind from traveling). 

I took with me my sound card and headphones (of course I had my laptop in my backpack) since I was gonna be alone and a day before, I ran into this beat on my laptop which I’d started and abandoned. But that Friday I couldn’t cos the piano sounded great and the bass too was awesome so I got hooked on it soon as I played it from my Fruity Loops (FL) Studio. Just when I was about done with the beat my sister called in since she’d been at the hospital with mom to update me about her health condition; it didn’t sound good, and in that trice, something in me just took over and I began laying words on that beat. That part of me that was inclined to singing other than the usual rap showed up and took the center stage and so verse by verse I wrote until the song was almost done, electricity went off and in a short while I shutdown. 

Saturday afternoon I opened the door, flung my back pack on the couch and laid on the rug, in a little over thirty minutes electricity was back (oh sweet Jesus I could almost hear me yell). I set up my studio and was ready to roll, I was done with the lyrics and was trying to master the track, I finished up but kept on with it, I was singing to the headphones playing in my head, I sang until the lights went out but I was done so no worries. All that remains now is the voice over, that would either be in Jos or Abuja so I went outside the room to get some air cos all of a sudden, the room was overly hot again. 

I got out and Reuben my friend and neighbor was out already, we talked you know as guys would, talked about different things before delving into soccer which was his favorite, and as we did I was like an open drain cos I was jittery, I could barely hear myself speak, I kept thinking about my mom and any call on my phone gave me a jump in my heart, I hadn’t eaten lunch and it was dinner time already and the sad part is I hadn’t prepared any food and didn’t even have the appetite for any but I knew I had to eat. 

My phone rang, I looked and it was my sister, how far I asked?  Fine! Mama’s not breathing well so I’m going downstairs to go fetch the doctors, OK I said. I told Reuben I was gonna go get some groceries but soon as I stepped out that gate, all I wanted to do was sit… On the road; on the sidewalk just anywhere… I was restless and sweaty. I found a spot beside a hotel that had the grocery shop and I sat on the pavement… A minute passed and it felt like I’d been there the whole day, I got up went to the shop and bought all that I needed to buy and headed straight home, I was outside with Reuben again. Vick my sister called while I was out and in just about five minutes after the call she called back again… I knew it was it… And the words ran…

OK! I didn’t know where I was in the next couple of minutes that came, my friend had noticed my silence and didn’t utter a word either. I waited for the tears but they wouldn’t roll, so I picked up the courage and I told him Mama ta tafi… (Mama’s gone)… He followed me quietly to my room trying to strengthen me asking that I’d be strong. All of a sudden all the pain I’d felt and the perplexity just vanished in an instant and I felt that lump drop; I was calm. The time was 21:35 I looked, April 22nd, I’d never forget.

Mama had passed an hour earlier 8 pm 8:30 pm there about, so all that five minutes between calls I’d been saying all the while was only five minutes in my head; more than an hour had passed, I was that restless and so out of sync with time. But after I’d regained myself, I began sending news to my friends who’d been there for me throughout the journey (thank you so much guys, I couldn’t ask for better friends than you; you are my family). 

May the heavens and angels receive your gentle soul Mama, I’ll miss you; that dance we always had, but I’m happy cos now you’re resting, you don’t have to feel no pain no more. Your time here’s done and that’s why you had to leave, don’t worry I’m strong now, I have an army of people who’d take care of me while you’re away… I have a friend I can always bug, she even asked me to share her mom too… Lol! So bye now Mama… 

Here’s a link https://soundcloud.com/user-750998328 you can download the song I made for her for free titled “Inen Le” meaning “Oh My Mother” (in my local language Alago) . Please enjoy and share with your friends. Thanks for always stopping by… 

Hello…

Hello…

It’s been quite some time, and I was just wondering if you’re still there the way I left you? That purple rose with an exotic heady fragrance. You know I’d always loved to smell you every morning, at least before the sun comes out…

Hello…

Are you still there? I hope your petals still blossom and nothing short? These fingers would love to run through them because they always spark life. But when they don’t, let me create music in them with these same fingers…

Hello…

My name is… ow it’s still me! Is there someone to cheer you up during those moody stressful days when you’d say to me …”I had a rough day”? My name would change to euphoria if they’re able to strike a muscle with just a word, forcing a smile out of your well-sculpted-fragile lips…

Hello…

It’s still me speaking! I don’t know but do you still think of me like you used to? I’m in this beautiful city of Jos, and everything here reminds me of you, remember there’s a word here that best describes you and I don’t have to reiterate that again but maybe it was just a thought, but the thing here is I’m thinking maybe I’m alone on this road… just thinking!

Hello…

I… You care for a glass of smoothie? (What are you doing she’s not here… shhhh!) Oh sorry! Just that I’ve made this countless times hoping that maybe one day you’d get to taste how horrible they are… or maybe you’d love them just like I do?

Hello…

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Did you see that Angel? Standing there covered in beautiful heavenly wings almost blinding my eyes with her illuminating halo…

Hello…

Do still you still have those conversations deep into the night? Since you went away I could barely hold one longer than my whiskers.

Hello…

Uhmmmm never mind!!! (…just say i……t) not important!!! I’d just let it go.

Hello…

I saw a shooting Star… (I always see one, how lucky 🙂 ). Here’s a thing, each time I see one, a smile covers my face leaving me in awe and shortly afterwards, the wish comes. Happy bubbles fill my brain, consume it, and leave me brainless. But then I realise how all the more beautifully crested you are even in that state… Mentally satisfied I am, leaving the dream in my head, physically fit and free, lips to the side and heads still up I look into the deep and say… The sky is beautiful, thusly; heaven must be something else… And every moment with you felt like this!

Hello…!!!