I’m Not The Man In The Mirror, But Who Is???

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That is not me, I see a different man, one who doesn’t care about the pit anymore. He knows he’s gonna fall but unlike his old self he now graciously jumps off the cliff regardless…

But then I ask, what happened to him; what went wrong? Then again I realise that maybe, many days of guilty feelings and constant emotional pressure got him here…

Now ruthless and a lost soul in the world fighting ferociously to have his life back, at least so he could recognise the man in the mirror; the one he used to know; one that gave him every reason to smile, live, and of course love again.

But where could that man be? Has he become of the world, or does he reside still inside this man standing in front of the mirror? Look closely, and you just might find him… right where you stand!!!

The man in the mirror!

What’s In That Big Open Space… – That Blue???

What’s In That Big Open Space… – That Blue???
I came outside my room after about 30minutes aerobics at my lobby to get some air; some natural air i.e outside before having a shower to wipe off the sweat off my skin, I took a seat on my neighbour’s giant generator breathing heavily and after just a few seconds, my eyes were up gazing at this beauty… this beautiful sky which soon afterwards gave rise to these questions...

I looked deep into the sky, looked South looked up North, looked West looked far East but there was no end to it, all I could see was space; wide open space. Was I really expecting to see anything? A UFO maybe…lol but no there was nothing!! Maybe that premeditation prompted the bigger question “what’s in my open space”? I look at myself most times with a third eye, wondering what lies ahead in my tenebrific realm especially when it seems a little bit rough on the inside, that time when everything seems to be caving in with you sticking your arm right up hoping someone would just grab it lest you get buried beneath the surface.

In about five minutes just  before getting up to take a shower-step, I noticed a relieving smile on my face, think I found the answer, answer to that question  I was asking a few minutes ago, what’s lying in that open space must be something exceedingly beautiful else why can we not see it? It had to be I thought cos if it be nothing then there was no reason hiding it from us, guess that’s why God had to just let the beautiful sky cover us and leave us with the just-imagine effect. Then again I thought that my dreams, me, my relationship, my future is thusly beautiful, outrageously since I can’t see it. I can only live with the excitement that comes with it and the feeling of fulfilment it gives me.

Certain things give me that push every day and enough reasons not to break, encouragements from self, beautiful people around me who give me soul lifting words every now and then I couldn’t let them down let alone myself even when I step into that dark planet. I’ve always found a way to turn darkness into light and that sadness into gladness, one of the reasons why I always want to walk home after work every day no matter how tiring or tasking the day was, it is my way of relaxing so don’t come jumping on me trying to give me a lift home (lol at least not now since I’m only a few meters away from the office), I’ve always rejected that kind gesture with a warm smile hoping to diddle them with it and its always worked out for me (thanks to my beautiful smiles hehe… ). Each time I see my bosses taking a ride home my prayer begins; oh please don’t ask me to hop into your ride plsssss….lol. And after a few seconds with a smile I say, thank God.

It’s beautiful when you find something to fall back to after a long day; something that brings you back alive, something that awakens your spirit and makes you the beautiful human being that God created you for, cos if darkness was good and was the whole nine yards, then there wouldn’t have been such a thing called day, everywhere would have been locked in it with no traces of light but since we have them in equal share, then its only right to share and enjoy in that big open space everyone has, it is for us to dwell in and always remain hopeful. I don’t know about y’all but, my big open space is BEAUTIFUL!!!

Hello…

Hello…

It’s been quite some time, and I was just wondering if you’re still there the way I left you? That purple rose with an exotic heady fragrance. You know I’d always loved to smell you every morning, at least before the sun comes out…

Hello…

Are you still there? I hope your petals still blossom and nothing short? These fingers would love to run through them because they always spark life. But when they don’t, let me create music in them with these same fingers…

Hello…

My name is… ow it’s still me! Is there someone to cheer you up during those moody stressful days when you’d say to me …”I had a rough day”? My name would change to euphoria if they’re able to strike a muscle with just a word, forcing a smile out of your well-sculpted-fragile lips…

Hello…

It’s still me speaking! I don’t know but do you still think of me like you used to? I’m in this beautiful city of Jos, and everything here reminds me of you, remember there’s a word here that best describes you and I don’t have to reiterate that again but maybe it was just a thought, but the thing here is I’m thinking maybe I’m alone on this road… just thinking!

Hello…

I… You care for a glass of smoothie? (What are you doing she’s not here… shhhh!) Oh sorry! Just that I’ve made this countless times hoping that maybe one day you’d get to taste how horrible they are… or maybe you’d love them just like I do?

Hello…

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Did you see that Angel? Standing there covered in beautiful heavenly wings almost blinding my eyes with her illuminating halo…

Hello…

Do still you still have those conversations deep into the night? Since you went away I could barely hold one longer than my whiskers.

Hello…

Uhmmmm never mind!!! (…just say i……t) not important!!! I’d just let it go.

Hello…

I saw a shooting Star… (I always see one, how lucky 🙂 ). Here’s a thing, each time I see one, a smile covers my face leaving me in awe and shortly afterwards, the wish comes. Happy bubbles fill my brain, consume it, and leave me brainless. But then I realise how all the more beautifully crested you are even in that state… Mentally satisfied I am, leaving the dream in my head, physically fit and free, lips to the side and heads still up I look into the deep and say… The sky is beautiful, thusly; heaven must be something else… And every moment with you felt like this!

Hello…!!!